Happy late birthday to me!

A few days ago was my birthday (on april 11th), I turned 33! Seriously, time is flying by! And I feel so old when I say that ha haa. I am completely convinced that no one should have to work on their birthdays, there should be a law or something lol. But people at work were nice, they brought balloons and a cake, so that was sweet. After work my family and I went to a Chinesse restaurant. The food was so good, I ate a lot. I got a pair of boots from my mom, some lotion from my dad, a sweater from my sister, a purse from mom´s boyfriend, and some tealight holding things from my brother. We didn´t have a cake but I blew candles on some kind of dessert ha haa. Well I did have the cake at work though. So it was a nice day, even though I don´t really care for my birthday.

Oh my girlfriend sent me something too, but I haven´t received it yet. She also sent me some really hot pictures of herself! ;) Haa haa! Speaking of her, I don´t know why we have soo many missunderstandings sometimes. It´s like, things are going great, and all of a sudden we either can´t understand each other, or can´t really talk to each other, one of us gets quiet and the other one gets annoyed, and it ends up turning into something big when it doesn´t need to. It´s pretty frustrating, cause neither of us wants to fight. But it just happens over and over and we can´t seem to stop it. I think part of it is that we can only talk over the phone, which I think makes things harder, cause you can´t see the other person and all. *Shrugs*

I wanted to thank everybody for their comments on the last entry, it really helps put things in perspective, and it´s good to have other points of view. You guys are amazing! :)

Today is cold here, I hate cold days, well it´s winter now so it should get colder brrrr. I would be happy to live all year in summer I swear lol. Anyway, I´ll be a bum today and probably won´t do much. Tomorrow we will probably go to the mall cause I want to exchange the sweater my sister gave to me for another color, black lol, I just love black and can´t help it! Take care! :)

Ranting

Ok so I need to vent a bit…. Last night I was talking to my girlfriend about her moving here and all, and we’re both excited but at the same time kinda nervous and scared. That’s normal right? I mean, I understand her being nervous about moving to a different country, where she just knows me, and we speak a different language and all. I just don’t want her to be like super scared. And I’m kinda nervous too, because she will basically depend on me completely at least at first, and I don’t know, I just want everything to work out. I’m also nervous cause it will be a big change for me, I’ve never had a girlfriend here in Chile, and I’m sure it won’t be easy. People are not as open minded as they are in other places, like the US, so I know having a girlfriend won’t be the easiest thing. Ahhh I don’t know I’m just nervous about everything, is this me just being silly, should I just try to relax and not worry so much about everything? Cause I really want her to come here, I just feel responsible for her cause she’s so much younger and all. I know this must be so much scarier and harder for her too, I just want her to be happy about it and not so scared. I don’t even know if I’m making much sense, am I? lol

We have waited for soooo long, that now that the time is getting closer and closer, I think we’re both freaking out a little. But all we both want are for things to work out. Well anyway, that was my rant for today. I would like to know what you all think.

I´m kinda back

Hi everybody.

I’m sorry I completely disappeared for so long, I went on vacation, then I had to return a little sooner than planned cause my dad’s blood pressure was really high, so I got scared. He is doing ok now, but he needs to take a lot of meds. Then I realized that I was depressed… that I didn’t really enjoy the vacation like I thought I would, and that I was just too stressed to be able to be ok. So I started taking anti depressants and they have been helping a lot I think, I feel better now.

Work has just been really stressing, I have a lot more responsibilities and I’m not really sure about how to do a lot of the things I’m doing so it’s scary. But I have faith that I will be able to do a good job. It just doesn’t leave a lot of free time, since I used to post while I was at work before ha ha. So those are basically the reasons why I have been gone. I don’t really think that I can keep up writing the blog regularly, and reading everybody’s blogs, cause of the lack of time, but I’m going to try to, cause I love reading about everyone and sharing the things that happen to me.

My kitty that wasn’t doing so well before, is doing pretty good now, so I’m really happy about that. He’s so freaking adorable lol, well I love my 3 kitties.

Things with my girlfriend have ups and downs, but all in all we have been ok. The day when she will come here is getting closer and closer, I can’t believe how fast time is going by. I really can’t wait, I don’t like being alone, I want to have her with me to be able to do stuff together (don’t think dirty thoughts lol). I know it will be hard too though, because I’ll have to tell people that don’t know about me being a lesbian, my friends and all, and I really don’t know how they will react. I’m glad my family knows and they are supportive, but people here are so closed minded, that’s one thing I don’t like. But I’ll deal with it, I need to do what makes me happy, no matter what the rest think right?

Anyway, I´m sorry for disappearing, I´ll try to catch up some with everybody and hope that you guys still remember me lol. ;)

Going on Vacation!

I’ve been crazy busy this week cause it’s my last week before vacationnn! I leave saturday, and I’m so glad cause I need them really really bad. But it’s been kinda tough too, cause my kitty worries me a lot, he eats sometimes, other times he doesn’t want to, and since I’m not home all day, I can’t be sure about how much he’s eating, cause I have 2 other kitties. I’ve been thinking if I should leave him at the vet’s or at home, and I think I’m just going to leave him at home, cause he will get so stressed at the vet’s for 2 weeks, that I’m afraid it might be worse for him. I’m not sure yet though, I just want my baby to be ok while I’m away.

My girlfriend was in a car accident monday, she got hit by a pick up truck. I’m so glad that she was wearing her seatbelt, she’s ok, just a little sore, but it was very scary. I hate that I wasn’t able to be there for her, but I’m so glad that she’s ok. Her car is pretty messed up though, but that’s not important.

So I’m leaving saturday, for 2 weeks, I’m going to a place in the middle of the mountains, it’s very nice and quiet and relaxing. Exactly what I need right now. I’ll just miss talking to my girlfriend, cause like I said before, cel phones don’t work there, so I will only be able to call her probably a couple of times. She’s really sad, but she’s trying to be good about it. But I just keep thinking, that when I come back it will be march already. It’s crazy how time is flying! Which is a good thing, cause it means, less time til she can come over here! Yay! :)

This was my second Valentine’s day with my girlfriend, and we have been apart for both of them. I know it’s just a day like any other, but it would have been nice to be able to spend it with her. She got on webcam for me though, and she’s so pretty! :) I love seeing her.

Anyway, I wanted to thank everybody for their comments, it makes me happy to read them. I’m sorry I haven’t been able to read blogs this week cause of work being so crazy. And now I’ll be gone for 2 weeks, but I’ll catch up with everybody when I get back from my vacation. I hope to be able to chat with some of you too. I’ll read you guys in 2 weeks!

I hate waiting

It’s so hard waiting… waiting for everything. I feel like my life’s on hold right now. I’m kinda cranky today cause I REALLY need a vacation, like NOW! I need to talk to my boss again to see when can I actually take my 2 weeks off, cause I’m at a point where I can barely work.

So I’m waiting… waiting for my vacation. Waiting to see if I get the loan for the apartment I’m buying, waiting to finally have my own place again. Waiting until my girlfriend can finally move over here. Have I mentioned that I REALLY hate waiting? Well I do. Maybe today everything seems worse cause I’m just exhausted.

So this is just a venting post, I want to feel like some things in my life are working out good, and right now I feel like everything is in the air, and that frustrates me a lot.

On another subject… when I take my 2 week vacation, I won’t really be able to talk to my girlfriend on the phone much, cause the place I’m going to is in the middle of the mountains and has no cel phone signal. So I know L will be upset and all, but I hope she understands that I really need the time off. This long distance thing is so hard, but I’m glad that we’ve been doing good lately. I just want to be done waiting… ok?

I want to skip a few months

So my bosses are back from their vacation, and I have to actually WORK! Ugh so annoying lol. But I was thinking, well I just HAVE to update my blog right? ;) I don’t feel like I usually have much to say, but I’ll think of something ha ha.

My kitty Guaton is doing a little better, he has been eating some on his own, so that’s really good. Plus I’ve been buying really yummy stuff for him to eat lol, I have to spoil my baby. I love my 3 kitties so so much, they are so adorable.

So things with my girlfriend have been good lately, which makes me pretty happy. We both have strong tempers, and sometimes we tend to fight a lot, even though we live far away from each other. Sometimes I wonder if it’s the long distance thing that frustrates both of us and makes us fight more, or if it’s just our tempers. But we are going through a good time lately, and I’m really glad cause it’s really draining to be fighting with the person you love all the time. It just gets so hard when we are both working and have little time to talk. I have to say I NEVER thought I could wait for her this long. It’s been a year and 2 months since I last (and first) saw her, and I really can’t believe it’s been that long already. We have a countdown for the day she’s coming here, and it’s crazy how fast time is going! :) Can I just sleep for the next 6 months and wake up when she’s here? lol I really wish I could!

I wonder how things are going to be when she actually gets here, I know I shouldn’t be dreaming about the future so much, but it’s hard not to. I want to know if she’s going to like it here, if we’ll be good together, so many things.

Right now I’m living with my mom (It’s only TEMPORARY lol), but I’m trying to get a loan to buy my own apartment… our own apartment, I really hope it works out, it would be so cool to have our own place and not have to rent. If it all works out, I should be moving into the new apartment around june, and my girlfriend should be getting here in august. Goddd can I fast forward a few months? Lol

I love my girlfriend

So I’m still pretty worried about my kitty Guaton.I spent all weekend just trying to get him to eat. And he ate some, I just have to keep trying to make him want to eat, cause he looks weak and has no appetite. He’s one of my babies and I worry a lot about him. Thanks so much to everybody for the good vibes for my baby. I have 3 kitties and I know how important it is that they eat, cause they get liver problems if they don’t. So I’m watching him closely, and I’m in touch with the vet. It just sucks that I have to work so I can’t watch him or make him eat while I’m at work ugh. I hope that he pulls through on his own, cause if he doesn’t start eating, the vet will have to put a feeding tube. I’ve been though that with another kitty, and it’s really not fun...

My girlfriend has been so good to me, I don’t know how she puts up with me sometimes, I swear. I’ve been so upset and stressed with work, and now my kitty, that my mood hasn’t exactly been the best. But she’s always there telling me how much she loves me and how important I am to her… She makes me melt I swear. And sometimes I wonder how can she love me so much, cause I feel like I’m a mess. I can’t wait until she can be here with me, I really really miss her so much. Can it be august already?

You know, reading all these blogs about families with 2 moms, has made me think about it more. I always thought that if I was in a lesbian relationship, I wouldn’t ever have kids. But I’ve been seeing how many couples there are out there, who have beautiful families, or are expecting a baby, and it gives me hope, that maybe some day, that could be me.