Happy late birthday to me!

A few days ago was my birthday (on april 11th), I turned 33! Seriously, time is flying by! And I feel so old when I say that ha haa. I am completely convinced that no one should have to work on their birthdays, there should be a law or something lol. But people at work were nice, they brought balloons and a cake, so that was sweet. After work my family and I went to a Chinesse restaurant. The food was so good, I ate a lot. I got a pair of boots from my mom, some lotion from my dad, a sweater from my sister, a purse from mom´s boyfriend, and some tealight holding things from my brother. We didn´t have a cake but I blew candles on some kind of dessert ha haa. Well I did have the cake at work though. So it was a nice day, even though I don´t really care for my birthday.

Oh my girlfriend sent me something too, but I haven´t received it yet. She also sent me some really hot pictures of herself! ;) Haa haa! Speaking of her, I don´t know why we have soo many missunderstandings sometimes. It´s like, things are going great, and all of a sudden we either can´t understand each other, or can´t really talk to each other, one of us gets quiet and the other one gets annoyed, and it ends up turning into something big when it doesn´t need to. It´s pretty frustrating, cause neither of us wants to fight. But it just happens over and over and we can´t seem to stop it. I think part of it is that we can only talk over the phone, which I think makes things harder, cause you can´t see the other person and all. *Shrugs*

I wanted to thank everybody for their comments on the last entry, it really helps put things in perspective, and it´s good to have other points of view. You guys are amazing! :)

Today is cold here, I hate cold days, well it´s winter now so it should get colder brrrr. I would be happy to live all year in summer I swear lol. Anyway, I´ll be a bum today and probably won´t do much. Tomorrow we will probably go to the mall cause I want to exchange the sweater my sister gave to me for another color, black lol, I just love black and can´t help it! Take care! :)

Ranting

Ok so I need to vent a bit…. Last night I was talking to my girlfriend about her moving here and all, and we’re both excited but at the same time kinda nervous and scared. That’s normal right? I mean, I understand her being nervous about moving to a different country, where she just knows me, and we speak a different language and all. I just don’t want her to be like super scared. And I’m kinda nervous too, because she will basically depend on me completely at least at first, and I don’t know, I just want everything to work out. I’m also nervous cause it will be a big change for me, I’ve never had a girlfriend here in Chile, and I’m sure it won’t be easy. People are not as open minded as they are in other places, like the US, so I know having a girlfriend won’t be the easiest thing. Ahhh I don’t know I’m just nervous about everything, is this me just being silly, should I just try to relax and not worry so much about everything? Cause I really want her to come here, I just feel responsible for her cause she’s so much younger and all. I know this must be so much scarier and harder for her too, I just want her to be happy about it and not so scared. I don’t even know if I’m making much sense, am I? lol

We have waited for soooo long, that now that the time is getting closer and closer, I think we’re both freaking out a little. But all we both want are for things to work out. Well anyway, that was my rant for today. I would like to know what you all think.

I´m kinda back

Hi everybody.

I’m sorry I completely disappeared for so long, I went on vacation, then I had to return a little sooner than planned cause my dad’s blood pressure was really high, so I got scared. He is doing ok now, but he needs to take a lot of meds. Then I realized that I was depressed… that I didn’t really enjoy the vacation like I thought I would, and that I was just too stressed to be able to be ok. So I started taking anti depressants and they have been helping a lot I think, I feel better now.

Work has just been really stressing, I have a lot more responsibilities and I’m not really sure about how to do a lot of the things I’m doing so it’s scary. But I have faith that I will be able to do a good job. It just doesn’t leave a lot of free time, since I used to post while I was at work before ha ha. So those are basically the reasons why I have been gone. I don’t really think that I can keep up writing the blog regularly, and reading everybody’s blogs, cause of the lack of time, but I’m going to try to, cause I love reading about everyone and sharing the things that happen to me.

My kitty that wasn’t doing so well before, is doing pretty good now, so I’m really happy about that. He’s so freaking adorable lol, well I love my 3 kitties.

Things with my girlfriend have ups and downs, but all in all we have been ok. The day when she will come here is getting closer and closer, I can’t believe how fast time is going by. I really can’t wait, I don’t like being alone, I want to have her with me to be able to do stuff together (don’t think dirty thoughts lol). I know it will be hard too though, because I’ll have to tell people that don’t know about me being a lesbian, my friends and all, and I really don’t know how they will react. I’m glad my family knows and they are supportive, but people here are so closed minded, that’s one thing I don’t like. But I’ll deal with it, I need to do what makes me happy, no matter what the rest think right?

Anyway, I´m sorry for disappearing, I´ll try to catch up some with everybody and hope that you guys still remember me lol. ;)