Relationships and coming out

*yawns* I’m sleepy. But then I’m sleepy pretty much every day I have to wake up early lol. Blogger is not letting me into some blogs, anyone else having this problem? It´s so annoying.

A post from Angel girl made me want to tell you guys more of my story. So I’ve lived in Chile most of my life, and after college I went to live to the US (cause I was born there). So while I was there, I met this girl that I had been talking to online for a really long time, and we had become really close friends, and for the first time I realized “wow, I might have more feelings for her than just friendship”. That was quite a realization, I couldn’t really believe it at first, that I was falling in love with a woman. After like 8 months of living in San Diego, I moved upstate NY to be with her. Things with her were never easy, but I’m stubborn, and I loved her, or thought I did I’m not sure anymore, so I had to give things a try. But it didn’t work out, I lived with her for 2 years, and we would fight so much, things were really bad. So I came back to Chile, and I didn’t want to be with a girl again, cause my experience wasn’t really the best, plus I didn’t want to have to face my family telling them I was gay. I dated a few guys, but things never worked out, I have to say that I really tried dating guys, but I was just not happy with them, I never felt like I was in love.

So while I was trying to date guys, I met my actual girlfriend online, and things with her felt so right, and natural, and even though I was with her for just a week, I was completely happy then.

Angel girl, I’m sure it must be very hard that your parents still don’t know. I was really scared about telling my mom, but one day she just asked me, and of course I couldn’t deny it anymore. I know she’s not happy with it, but she sorta accepts it I think. My dad it totally cool about it, and my sister rocks, they just want me to be happy. My brother doesn’t know cause I really don’t get along with him. I think I’ll tell some of my friends when I actually have my girlfriend with me, I don’t really want to tell them before that. I know that a lot of my friends won’t take it that great, but I guess that shouldn’t matter as much.

I’m a little scared about my girlfriend moving here, I have to admit that. I mean, we were only together for a week, and she’s moving to a different country, she knows only a little spanish, so I know things won’t be exactly easy. I’m just hoping for the best for both of us.

Thanks everybody for your comments, I love reading them! :)